I Used to Think I Was Lazy – Until I Discovered This

I am blown away by how easy it has become for me to take action. Every day, I am slaying the dragon of procrastination, stepping into my power, and embracing quantum action. Quantum action means acting in spite of fear, stretching beyond my comfort zone, and showing up fully. My new belief? I am a quick learner and an action taker.

But it wasn’t always this way.

You see, I used to believe that something was wrong with me. I thought, maybe I have ADHD? Maybe I just don’t have the focus or discipline to succeed. I procrastinated constantly. Every time I needed to complete an important task, I’d find myself scrolling through my phone, getting lost in messages, or binge-watching an entire Netflix series. Hours, days, even weeks would slip away. It made me feel like I would never succeed. I started believing that I simply didn’t have what it takes, that I wasn’t disciplined enough, and that maybe I was destined to stay stuck.

The worst part? This belief wasn’t just mine. It was reinforced by my upbringing. My parents would say, “Mariam, you’re just lazy.” And so, I internalized it. I started seeing myself that way. Even as I dove into self-healing, inner child work, and shadow work, even as I helped others heal and step into their power, I still found it difficult to take consistent action toward my own deeply held dreams.

I saw this same struggle in my clients. They would experience incredible breakthroughs, activate their divine purpose, and feel the pull toward their soul’s calling—but then, they would sabotage themselves. They would distract themselves with other pursuits, avoiding the very thing that their heart and soul longed for. They had done the deep healing, yet something was still missing.

I remember the moment my widely improbable goal was activated. It was 2018, and I was in a Dreams & Goals workshop by Donna McCallum. I felt a surge of energy like never before—an undeniable knowing that my calling was to host life skill workshops for kids, teaching them self-love and self-worth. It was exhilarating, yet terrifying. Instead of acting on it, I found myself suppressing it, telling myself, “One day, I’ll do it.” But years passed, and I never moved forward.

Everything changed when I invested in becoming a Positive Intelligence (PQ) coach.

Positive Intelligence taught me something crucial: no matter how much deep healing we do, we must also strengthen our Sage brain. We need mental fitness. Because when that saboteur voice whispers, “You’re going to fail. You’ll make a fool of yourself. They won’t like you. You’re not good enough,” we need the strength to catch it, quiet it, and take action anyway.

Through PQ training, I learned how to identify and neutralize the voices of my saboteurs—whether it was the Hyper-Vigilant whispering fear, the Pleaser telling me to put others first, or the Avoider convincing me to wait. I became aware of these voices in real time and learned how to shift into my Sage—my highest self—who sees possibilities, takes action, and embraces challenges with ease.

Now, I wake up each morning and take bold steps forward. I no longer hesitate or hide. I no longer play small. Because I know that when I allow myself to shine, I give permission for others to do the same. And now, I help my clients not just heal but develop the mental fitness to stay on track, take action, and bring their soul’s calling to life.

This is why I believe in Positive Intelligence so deeply. Healing our past is essential, but if we don’t train our minds to work for us, we will continue to sabotage ourselves. Now, I am committed to helping others develop this strength so they can finally live their purpose, unapologetically and powerfully.

Are You Ready to Break Free from Self-Sabotage?

If my story resonates with you, and you feel like you’ve been holding yourself back from the life you truly desire, I invite you to book a free Saboteur Discovery Session with me. Together, we’ll uncover the hidden saboteurs that have been running the show and shift you into your power, clarity, and action.

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